four.

I'm beginning to think that my wisdom teeth do not want me to write on a daily basis, if at all. This is prohibiting me from thinking coherently let alone expressing myself through writing. I wish that i could feel the flow of being a writer again. I miss it dearly.

two (and three)

Yesterday was far too hectic to sit down and write out my thoughts. I feel like life is all crazy hectic and I have way too many things going on in my head to just STOP. BREATHE. and WRITE. I need to free-association write and I hope to get that accomplished this weekend.

I got my wisdom teeth out this morning. I'm groggy and kinda sleepy and incredibly sore and very hungry. But I am not in alot of pain, so for that I am incredibly grateful and I will not be complaining about this experience.

Like I said, I have too much in my head to write at this point in time. I'm terribly sorry, i believe this could very well be a cop-out. But I have every intention of writing, I just cannot accomplish that in this format today.

I feel like I need to develop a signature.
I'll be brainstorming that in my future journaling and blogging for sure.

one.

This is going to take some getting used to. I've always aspired to write, every day. Produce something of value each waking moment. Attempt to express my inner-most thoughts eloquently, at least once a day. But somehow, I always fail. I've never been able to get into the groove of sitting down, quieting my mind, and letting go. I'm unsure why I have such a difficulty expressing myself to.. myself? Yet here I am. I'm excited to be starting the NEW YEAR this way, I feel like this could become a good habit to get into, but until it adapts to a part of my every day routine, I'll keep "force-writing". (Not my favorite..)

on LOVE: I'm learning to love me, more. I have always had a fairly high level of self-confidence, but there is a difference between confidence and acceptance. I'm writing a piece right now one loving and being love, I'm anxious to see how it turns out. I'll post it here later.

on LIFE: it goes on.

(I tend to write in cliches when I force-write. bear with me)

on TODAY: I'm anxious, uncomfortable, annoyed, interested, nosy, uninspired, bored, indecisive, unbalanced, matching, cliche, unobservant, creative, unfocused, sleepy, random, borderline-obnoxious, quiet, amused, musical... wondering where today will take me.

I can tell that my format and style of writing is going to change and adapt quite a bit throughout this whole experience.